Can someone please help me understand guys?!? 

My fiance has three different email accounts that he never told me about & I found out by looking on his computer & I asked him about it, he says I'm just helping my friend out to see if his bf is being honest with her(not cheating) but I kept on seeing his ex name being popped up.... (UGH) but of course "it's nothing" & now he's out with friends that's 2 females but I met them one time but he said I'll just drop you off cause I know you don't wanna come with US!!!! & I said OH OKKKAE!!! (With a tude of course) & he said idk what all three of us gonna do..... in my head :I'm like okkkae if I'm not here when you come back idc what you gonna do..... but I didn't say anything but he knew I was pissed off! B4 he left but he's been gone since 4pm... but the crazy thing is I lyk both of the girls they seemed nice af but one of them went out with him & the other one just wanted to fuck him..... UGH I HATE FALLEN IN LOVE GRRR!!! Please can someone give me advice?!?

HOLD ME!!!!

i love...

i love.

i loved you when we ran into the door.

even when i had another lover.

i tried and tried to keep my distance but i couldn't help myself.

  November 2, 2013 @730 pm you told me you love me for a long time and you still want to be with me.

 and i said YES!!!:D<3 p="">

  December 29,2012 @900pm you ask me to be your wife.

and i said  YES!!!!! XOXO

 but since you came back from Tcu & we lived together.

we moved to your aunties place you never looked @ me the same as you did before.

we leech out & argue.

you lie about a lot of things but now I'm second guessing everything.

do you love me?!?

Dear jesus

jesus have you really crused me?
i mean i been craving for a blade for the longest,
and Ms. linda been believeing in sandra...
even when they call me a demon,
which im not i am a family of the most high....
anyway today i really do feel like killing myself,
but i dont want sandra th get the victory.....
or the devil......
just please let me be up in heaven with you jesus.
i hate my life with a passion..
why couldnt you kill me when i was born?
i mean why?
i was born in a crused family,
and now that i am sixteen im crused,
but in an blessed family well kind of...
i just want you jesus....
walk with you talk with you and learn your ways....

ps god i love you with a passion

love malaysia
05/08/10

i need a man

i need a man that doesnt want me for sex,
i need a man to care for me just like i care for him...
that i would have sex with and not tell his buddies....
mmmmmm.....
i need a man that doesnt like sharing his women with his friends,
a man who cars what i do with my life,
a supported man,
and who would like what i do...
who cares on how i feel....
a man.....
and not just any man......
so one day i would be married beside him,
we'll be faithful,
and i would too...
so our love will be passionate....
he'll be my husband.....
and i'll be his wife......
our love will be that make-up love,
that love would never fail...
who loves my god who watches us in heaven....
who loves us to die for us.....
so yeah i need a man

by: Malaysia Smiley- Coleman
05/11/10